I think I need to explain my last post... looking back on it, it sounds very depressing and extremely suicidal. There are points in your life where you feel as low as it gets, and in those points you may break down from time to time. This happens alot around the time of a girls period. Honestly I am emotional and about to start my period, and my life just isnt what I want it to be right now. I want to be with someone who doesnt want me back, and I am trying my hardest to not push him away further. But its alot harder then it seems. I am stressed about school because I feel like I need to make an A in everything to be successful in the field I want to go in. And work has been such a pain in my butt lately. I am not suicidal, I am just in a bad spot in my life, and I dont really know how to fix it without going through more pain. SIGHHHHH.... waiting for some answers. I woke up this morning trying to recap in my head what I had dreamed, when I found myself wondering if I dreamed certain things or had just thought about those things before I fell asleep. Its hard to distinguish between reality sometimes.
My dreams have been more like pieces of seperate dreams lately. :
I was in a circle with people in some comfy chairs on a campus, and bobby was in the circle, I was explaining how you can make your own major and the university has to approve it aslong as you come up with the curriculum and faculty. As an example I used Terry as the president and bobby as the VP. Terry was walking by is why I used him. In the background there was a construction crane moving entire buildings around.
Austin had a pimple on his nose and he was asking me how to pop it since it was a weird angle, and I showed him.(wish I dreamed more about him)
I was at Jets and it was Tom's last day and he was extremely excited to be leaving and going on with his life, and I found it odd that he was acting so happy.
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